Grey light crawls through soap-scummed glass

And far below the hog-trucks pass,

From gate to dock.

Dusty 'jackals... toward a carrion pi le...

I scuff my boots down kill-floor-aisle.

The fat-stained 'jacket scrapes my jaw.

And now the moving chain invokes a law

 

Of Ten,

And endless Ten,

Again.

While steaming carcasses swing and shake,

The sick-sweet stench of entrails

Makes my throat's phlegm rise.

I hear the drone

Of motors.

Wheel of knives

On steel and stone.

 

Mocking demon-eyes of lamps

Leer from waiting cooler-hall.

I spit... and count the swaying-shapes to ten.

Look sideways at the other waiting men.

Bone-scratched palms against the hot-slick-ribs,

Rollers clink,

My shoulders pop with strain.

Numbness in my back and legs

Replaces pain,

And a ton of reeling headless-beasts

Moves down the rail.

 

Walk back and count to ten

For Hal,

And ten for Ben,

Then count my ten,

And shove another ton,

Along-again.

 

No pelvic thrust

Could make me feel more strong...

Or helpless...

While I dream of woodlands,

 

And my distant loves,

I  realize,

That with eight thousand hogs

We'll make a Forest

Of the up-thrust hooves,

By merely pushing

Mindless

All...

The many tons of tens

Down blood-dapped cooler-hall...

Past mocking demon-eyes of lamps

That wait along the wall.

 

Bob Heimerl, 1980

 

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